Two and a half years ago I decided to become a front-end developer. It was a rather ambitious decision as at the time I didn’t know what HTML meant and my attention span with computers was less than ten minutes. When I was six years old my sister tried to teach me how the clock works, but those numbers just got me very nervous and I refused to listen. And that was my attitude towards maths, physics and chemistry (anything to do with numbers really) for the years to come, until I decided to become a front-end developer.
On a Monday I hardly ever know what my next blog post will be about, but as the week progresses I notice that certain thoughts keep on repeating. What’s the theme for this week then? Well, I’ve been thinking if I’m a snail? Snails like to live a slower paced life, and they sometimes hide from the crowds. We live in a world of falcons and antelopes — this world loves speed, excitement and growth; sometimes to an extent that experiences and encounters remain shallow. Also happiness is to be achieved quickly, and the way to do that is to lower your expectations. But snails are not in a rush, and thus not ready to do that just yet.
In my previous post I mentioned that there are a few times and places in the past when I’ve felt like I’m just where I’m supposed to be, despite all the incompleteness of life. There might be chaos around me, but at the same time there is an exceptional calmness and focus inside. Like time would stop.
I began to think about this feeling more deeply and one word came to my mind: “bliss”. A word that I don’t actually even like. It has this rosy decoration around it and it sounds like a sloppy kiss. Nevertheless, bliss can be understood as a state of inner joy and contentment, despite the outside circumstances. During these blissful times, I’ve been happy with who I am and what I have, regardless of my accomplishments.